Oh man, when I start to think about knowing the gender everything gets really REAL. Of course, thinking about a lot of things makes it real, especially the cost of alone/john & tai / recreation time increasing dramatically- the story of parenthood of course.
Today I made calls that I should've made at least a week ago and it felt good to touch base with people. Sometimes I feel really overwhelmed by the phone, I guess because I always feel like 1) I can't really gauge how long a person wants to be on the phone with me and 2) I'm a terrible "recapper". I was talking about this with the girls earlier this week. My mom is an expert phone storyteller. I remember sitting in my room when I was younger listening to my mom tell the same story to 4 different people and being totally captivated every time. Not only that, but the story would usually be about what she and I did that day, so it's like- I just experienced everything she talked about firsthand and was still drawn into it. Usually I'm capable of recapping once to one person, MAYBE. Mostly because I feel like something becomes somewhat less important after I've talked about it with one person. Typically the first person I talk to will say:
"So what's new?"
and I'll tell them whatever news I have, we'll exchange ideas, I'll probably walk away from the conversation being touched in some way or another by their comments, ideas, reflections, blah blah blah. Then I talk to the next person and they say:
"So, what's new?"
and now, it's not new anymore. It's old because I already unloaded it.
I don't know. I think I just have to get over it and be a better communicative person via phone.
That's the end of that thought.
Other news of the past week:
1) Belly is getting bigger, harder and higher on my torso. Very cool
2) John's grandmother passed away which bums me out as I wish I could've met her
3) John and I saw Daybreakers, a vampire movie with the right idea and wrong everything else
4) Got turned away from seeing Avatar and eating at Blue C Sushi (sold out and closed, respectively)
5) Both of us have been pretty organization/goal oriented lately. I think I'm going to make a master list of goals called "101 Goals in 1001 Days" to try to record what's important to me in the next 2.75 years. John's making a database which connects smaller goals to bigger ones. It's pretty cool to follow benefit paths to see how something small you are doing is contributing to the big picture.
6) Everything is quite peaceful. Seems like a lot of things became very solid and well, peaceful since we found out we're having a baby. I feel like John is my rock, as corny as that sounds. We're totally committed and really excited about shaping our future and having a family.
7) I'm looking forward to mapping out the future with my mom moving to Seattle (and in a perfect world, Tim too :). It makes me happy to know that she will be a part of my life and growing family here as she blossoms into a person who is independent, optimistic and content. I know transitions take time and energy both physically and emotionally but I am completely confident that no matter what we'll figure everything out. It sure would be great to have both grandmothers (and Dave:) living nearby.
Whew that was a handful of thoughts!
Alright, well, I'm really excited to know girl/boy at this point. I'm still keeping my cool but man oh man it's like when you have to pee and finally find a toilet and start fumbling with your zipper. I'm just so close yet have to WAIIT.
OH- another thing that made it REALLY real was receiving our first baby gift in the mail yesterday!!!!! That was super exciting although John tried to open it without me there with him (FOUL BALL JOHN) but couldn't get it out of the package and ultimately we opened it together. THANK YOU AUNT SHELLY!!! It's a padded cover for shopping carts/restaurant booster seats. John took it out of the plastic wrap and sortof draped it over himself like a bra which I must say is a pretty good idea for my rapidly growing bosom in the meantime.
In conclusion, I ate steak tonight. Eat your heart out Mom, Ronda and vegetarians of the world. Yea, this fetus likes meat and I'm okay with that.
Man, I am REALLY excited to know if it's a girl or boy
for the record I tried to take the giftwrapped package out of the mail package (and failed) bc it didn't say who it was from, just a new york address -- and in the process of doing so opened up the card, which was also not labelled on the outside, so when I saw the inside of the card I just brought the whole thing intact over to Tai
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