Day One- Holy shit

When I woke up, I was feeling pretty crumby, cramps, fatigue and slight nausea. These are all symptoms of a normal menstrual cycle for me. I had been waiting a few days for the symptoms to amount to something and hadn't thought much of it.



I woke up VERY hungry so John walked down to Safeway to get breakfast and a home pregnancy test. Before he left I said, "I'm almost certain this is just my period, so I'm not going to think otherwise until we take the test." When he came back he unloaded everything but the test from the bags first, oblivious to me waiting anxiously. I went into the bathroom and peed away (I'd been holding for quite a while) and watched as 1 line appeared and soon after a 2nd line. My eyes must've been bulging, that moment when I realized everything had changed; a baby was already growing inside me.

I came back into my bedroom and handed John the stick. A huge grin spread over his face and he started laughing- "You're pregnant?? You're pregnant!!" What a moment! I was filled with uncertainty and John was filled with elation. We layed down and he reassured me. Just weeks earlier we had talked about having a baby- John was for it and I was against it- namely because I am in a job that I actually enjoy and I didn't want to give that up. Of course, this was paired with the other obvious factors such as resistance to the lifestyle change and not wanting to abandon any goals or dreams. The flurry of emotion was back in my foreground again with much more reality tacked onto it.



I kept thinking, "This is going to change everything." I will have to move, make arrangements at work, tell everyone and deal with conflicting opinions (which on this day, I was very suseptible to), and prepare for life with a third person.



"What are we going to do?" I asked (incredibly cliche in retrospect)
"Love each other, get ready financially, read a lot and have a baby."



We went to the bookstore and stocked up on books (we were the nervous/curious couple looking at all the books in the pregnancy section). Most endearing moment was John choosing a "Father-to-be" book, spotting another one and opting for both. Next stop was Target for prenatal vitamins and a stroll down the baby aisles which was overwhelming to say the least.



On the way home after a meal, I got a call back from Mom. My stomach was definitely churning thinking about the best way to tell her. After a 15 minute typical update discussion mostly about Dad's recent trip to Seattle and her upcoming jaunt to Atlantic City, I could tell she was ready to end the conversation.




"Wait Mom, I have something to tell you"
"......... What?"
"................ Well,.."
"Tell me what letter it starts with"
"P"
"........ IS THE SECOND LETTER 'R'?"
"Yes!"
"What is it!?!"
"You know what it is!"
"you're pregnant?"
"Yes!"
"Oh my God. I HAD A FEELING TAI!"



Pretty much right after this, she wanted to get off the phone to digest the information. I felt a lot better having told her. Next up, telling Dad and Tim. I'll need some time to regain my wits.

Once we arrived home, I continued to read, online and in the recently purchased books. According to the Due Date Calculator, although totally unofficial, my due date is on or around June 15, 2010. This means I am in the 5th week of pregnancy which you can read about here: http://www.babycenter.com/6_your-pregnancy-5-weeks_1094.bc

The night ended peacefully. The phrase of the day was surely, "I can't believe we're going to have a baby!"

"What happened today?"
"Uhhh, the poppy seed grew into a mango seed"